Super Like
i want someone to wake up next to every morning
says a guy on tinder
i laugh so hard that i fall out of my bed
and tears fall out of my eyes
because
that was way too forward
jesus christ
and he says
oh my god i’m so sorry i didn’t mean to send that to you
and i continue to laugh
and block him immediately
a guy starts the conversation with
i want your babies
i want that dick
and i block him too
a guy starts with
i can teach you a thing or two about dating
and i say
wow that’s a way to flirt
he doesn’t respond
and two days later he says
wait so will you go out with me
a guy says
hey is that bread in your second picture?
i like bread too
we have so much in common
and proceeds to spam
with sexual bread jokes
literally all day
at midnight he says
come over to my dorm and i’ll knead your dough
and i
continue to laugh
at all these other
lonely gay men
even though i am
a lonely gay man
myself
it’s been almost three (3)
years
since i last had a boyfriend
but i’m so tired of swiping
and talking to strangers
when i know the dates
never go anywhere
and i don’t really
talk to guys i like
anymore
and i laugh
at how these men
can be
way too forward
sometimes
i understand
the desperation
but that doesn’t mean
it’s not uncomfortable
and hilarious
to receive messages
like that
here i am
feeding my loneliness
with
strangers
that i don’t care about
sometimes i laugh
missing
something better
than this.
Mercury-Marvin Sunderland (he/him) is a transgender autistic gay man from Seattle with Borderline Personality Disorder. He currently attends the Evergreen State College and works for Headline Poetry & Press. He's been published by UC Riverside's Santa Ana River Review, UC Santa Barbara's Spectrum Literary Journal, and The New School's The Inquisitive Eater. His lifelong dream is to become the most banned author in human history. He's @Romangodmercury on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter.